okay okay, I'm excited for this post.
Yesterday .... I wrote about how I was going to do a submission workshop, well I did it today.
And I want to tell you about it.
Because why not bare all my kinks for you to read ...
So, there were 10 different category of submission.
1-Sexual
2-Service
3-Bratty
4-Masochist
5-Life Style
6-Little
7-Pet
8-Rope Bunny
9-Princess
10-Objectification
Just for some context, I will briefly describe each category and tell you what I thought about it. More or less my feelings of how I said yes or no to each category came from listening to the description and seeing how my body reacted to hearing it read out to me.
1-Sexual
Description: I am on my knees, wet, begging, having been edged three times prior, I whimper as I am devoured. My every move is being told to me. When to be still, when to open my legs, when to wait, when to take it, when to cum.
My thoughts/feelings: Fuck yes I need this. It feels so good to have someone else in control of my body and its needs - this makes me ache. (This was the one, out of the ten, I had the strongest physical response to.)
2-Service
Description: I awake and bring my dom his slippers, kneeling before him. I make him coffee and toast, cutting it exactly the way he likes it. I serve him from my knees and do anything to please him just to hear him call me his good girl.
My thoughts/feelings: Ehh....maybe ... this doesn't really turn me on. I would like to make my dom his favourite food and surprise him with treats but I am way too tired from being a mom to do this on a regular basis. Also, there is no way I could be perfectly presented, I always feel like I am just a mess. I do like being called a good girl though...
3-Bratty
Description: When my dom gets home, I am lounged in his chair instead of by the door on my knees. Wearing his shirt and a smirk. Waiting to see how he will handle me. See how he will punish me to put me back in my place.
My thoughts/feelings: oooooh yes - I love to have fun and push boundaries. I have an absolute desire to be man handled into submission, to be met with strength. I have no desire to walk on egg shells around my dom and don't want to have to try to be perfect, because I'm not, not at all. But mostly I want to disobey because I crave that connection and attention.
4-Masochist
Description: Tied down, arms above my head, choosing sensation as the next hit slaps my butt cheeks. I have no where else to be but in my body, and want to see how far I can stretch my body.
My thoughts/feelings: Fuck yes. I need to feel this. To feel the desires of my body, to see what my body can do. To be pushed and to be honoured. This one turned me on so much my pussy ached.
5-Life Style
Description: My day starts the same way everyday. My submission is owned by every moment of my day, it is how I live. Everything I do is an offering and a choice to serve again and to show up again for myself and my partner.
My thoughts/feelings: Not really feeling this. I would love to be collared and chosen regularly but I can't do structure like that even thought I crave stability. Seems super boring long term and I have no desire to be discarded again from another long term relationship.
6-Little
Description: (Not a sexual dynamic, more of a caring dynamic.) Wearing oversized pyjamas, curled up in bed, a stiffed animal tucked up under my neck, with snack wrappers everywhere. Having a tantrum because I do not want to clean up. My care giver (not called dom) is my grown up and takes care of my emotional and physical safety. We have deep emotional intimacy and trust.
My thoughts/feelings: No thanks. I don't want to be treated or to feel like a little girl. I also am not very comfortable with deep emotional intimacy.
7-Pet
Description: Curled up on the floor with my head resting gently on your knee. I nuzzle your hand when I want attention. When you call you me a good girl, I purr or wag my tail if I had one. I Show my submission with my eyes and my body. When you look at me adoringly, I melt.
My thoughts/feelings: ehhh maybe... sometimes it might be fun to play and purr but I don't want to lay on the floor. I'd like to be chosen and adored but only some times. Maybe I just want to wear a fluffy tail butt plug (remember that from a few blog posts back) and purr. But, perhaps taping into my animalistic side would be fun, but I don't know how far I could go with this. But experiencing ownership, having my body language read and being praised and adored appeals to me. Also, being chased and hunted is appealing. But then again... dressing up as cat woman and being collared, put on a leash sounds interesting. Maybe this one needs to be explored more.
8-Rope Bunny
Description: (A sub who likes to be tide up.) Sitting on the floor, knees folded, arms behind my back, each wrap around my chest stops me from fidgeting, from my brain racing. Still, framed, exposed, safe, release, and surrender. Being held exactly as I am.
My thoughts/feelings: uhhhhhhh yessssssss....... I crave the deep physical release through stillness and to be handled intentionally. I crave to surrender with nothing to do but be turned into art and a offering. A forced surrender to be pushed passed my own brain.
9-Princess
Description: I am sitting on silk sheets, my body moisturised, my dom lights a candle before I enter the room. He removes my shoes and kisses my hand. He worships me like a goddess and I am wanting to be fed and man handled. (A submissive who is comfortable being sassy and demanding in their desires.) He treats me like beautiful gift - he is my pleasure dom.
My thoughts/feelings: maybe? I'd like to be treated nicely but I don't need all of this to turn me on. I do feel that my sensuality and giving myself to my dom is a gift. The idea of having a pleasure dom is appealing. BUT I don't like princesses and I am not really the princess type. I don't like jewels and I am not really into wearing gowns. Can a princess wear yoga pants? I am not sure about this one.
10-Onjectification
Description: I am kneeling on the floor, back straight, eyes down. I have been positioned, not moving unless told to or I am moved. I am a piece of art, furniture. All function and form, no ego. I do not need to do anything to be valuable here. (Can be treated like an object, like a sex toy).
My thoughts/feelings: Maybe? But there are aspects of this that appeal to me such as I need to be chosen and I want to be used like a sex toy. I often feel the need to surrender -> "just do whatever you want to me".
My top submissive flavours therefore are: I am a bratty, sexual masochist rope bunny. What that actually entails I have yet to truly discover but if I could create a scenario in my mind it would be something like: I'd do something bratty to be man handled into being tied up in a shibari rope style and having hot wax dripped over me before being edged repeatedly and told when and when I cannot cum. Being told to shut up and take his dick like the dirty cum slut that I am.
uhhhhh yesssss…… that. Fuck yes please sir.
Divinity Brownwood 