Terror

I let you know ...
What was I thinking?
Where am I safe now?
To express what I need to ...
To get this energy out of me.

Will you love it?
Will you hate it?
Will you run again?
Will I ever even know?

I hate this uncertainty. 

I wish things were different. 
I wish I was free.

Free to be me.
To make my own choices,
Without compromising the future of others. 

I hope you do not hate this place.
This space I created.
Just for you.
To express what I need ...
To get it out into the open.

You told me once I was not too much.
I am banking on those words still being true.
That's why I took the leap.
The leap of truth, 
To try to show you ...
Some of the depths of my true soul.

Damn ...
I really hope this was not too much.
I am risking a lot.
That is okay. 
I am ...
Strong enough,
Brave enough,
Capable enough. 
To survive whatever your reaction is to this space. 

I hope I will thrive,
But if not ...
That's okay. 

I still took the chance,
Let my feminity show.

I need a space to be me.
Express myself safely.
This is it.
This is me.

Forever your Queen,
Giving you grace.