Grace

Hot and then cold
So close, yet 
Shut down by you again.

Fighting within myself 
Do I tell you how I feel
Or let it go, 
Let you go on your way.

Then what? - another 2 years goes by.
Will you really let me in then?
When the money is right.

I don't want that.
I want to be there to support you.
Watch you grow.
Watch you climb.
Support you when you let me.
Encourage you. 
Let you know I truly care. 
About you.

About your struggles past and future.
I want you, not the cash.
But you have your eyes on the prize. 
That prize isn't me.

I know What I feel.
This synergy is real.
You keep shutting it off.

Let yourself be open.
True success comes when you allow yourself to have it all.
Let yourself be vulnerable. 
Let yourself possibly be hurt.

There's always chances,
Always risks. 
That's part of life.
Live life or die trying.

So I allow you grace.
Hold my mouth shut.
I won't say these words.
You won't hear them anyways.

I always loved your energy.
The way we vibe.
I truly think you are my one.

I will give you the grace.
The grace to chase your dreams.
Alone.

That's what you want.
I back off.
Out of respect for your wishes.
The respect for myself. 

I try every day to be the whole package.
I'd rather be alone then not respected for the Queen that I am.

I am evolving too.
I only cried a few tears today.
Thank you for making me stronger.
For hardening my heart.
Just a bit more.
It was a nice reminder of what vibrations I am attracting.

Taking full responsibility. 
For me.

Baby I give you the grace.
To do what you need.

Catch you on the flip side of things. 
Going to continue to build my own castle.
It's too bad you won't let me in.
I really do care.
About you. 

Forever yours.
The Queen giving you grace.